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Showing posts with label Love and Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love and Life. Show all posts

6/13/2010

Yestertimes

"Yestertimes”; a magic word she coined because she's four
she uses to refer us to, generically, "before".
"Pretend we are outside, she says, "and 'tend it's raining, ‘kay?"
Articulated joy in her unique and special way.

"Show me mad," I say to her, to make her strike a pose.
I aim and snap a picture as her little spirit glows.
"Woe is me" another pose, a hand across her brow…
I take a second picture through the love and tears, somehow.

The years will soon adjust her look, increasing age and size;
she'll add a curl and curve or two to compliment her eyes.
I'll save, of course, these pictures and this memory in rhyme,
but Lord, if you would let me now, I'd put a stop to time.



6/24/2009

Simply (for Jeanie)

I have scars on my knees
and pain in my hips
but words of endearment
still fall from my lips.

The skin’s a bit wrinkled,
the hair turns to gray,
yet naught touches heart
that the voice will not say.

Its easier said now
and easier done;
a stream will flow smoother
the longer the run.

Simplicity matters
when push comes to shove…
I'm older and wiser...

and simply in love.


...

2/15/2009

However

A former hero; hero who was dead;
Consumable who was, himself, consumed--
was given second life; a second head;
so, not as nearly dead as once presumed.

Who was it, tell, that had the corpse exhumed?
What damsel altered, once again, his course?
Who led him to the stable, well perfumed,
and sat him, once again, astride his horse?

However raised, the knight was trotted forth.
However doused in drops of bitter rose…
However spurred, he rode his charger north...
to die again as one would well suppose.

1/16/2009

Just the One

A single step in time’s immortal height;
I paused to smell the roses wet with dew;
to watch the moon ascend majestic night
and in that moment fell in love with you.

And all our moments grew from just the one;
a solitary portion of an hour--
but, oh my love, that moment was the sun
that gave its light to grow this lovely flower.

In such a moment miracles occur --
when love’s a rose whose fragrance fills the air;
when past recalls how beautiful you were
and present how beloved. Then and there

I chose to give my heart; to stop pretending;
to live within this moment, never ending.


.

9/19/2008

Ego Eyes




A mirror image piece of mind I seek;
a shade of deepest shadow that I might
portray the picturesque from pots of bleak;
construct the bright of day from dark of night.

In hiding from my self-inflicted pain;
I tuck away the truth; I would protect
the cloth of my umbrella from the rain;
my fragile self from trial by retrospect.

A self-protective sheath, I realize…
a double-cross entrendre, metaphor
would o¬nly serve to catch my ego eyes
and focus on the pain I would ignore.

I seek a way to die yet live in death;
a blade to take my life but not my breath.

© Copyright 2004 Wayne D. Neighbors






9/18/2008

Crystal



Refracted by the lens of time,
the memories appear;
that eyes may hold them up to view;
that hearts may hold them dear.

These images of a rainbows lost;
of sunshine through the rain;
the mind will calculate the cost;
the soul will gauge the pain.

The beauty of a broken past
the heart will hold, in truth…
the rest will fade, as distant storms;
as does the flush of youth.

12/28/2007

Drink of Life


My planned spontaneity doesn’t surprise;
my rose colored glasses don’t cover my eyes
but all of that matters so little. It’s true
because of the fortunate presence of you.

We’ve matching insanities, perfectly synched
we stare and we stare then together we blink
Compatible vices, no reasons to hide
with hearts on our sleeves we will stumble in stride.

When life gives me lemons, I know what to make,
I’ve gallons and gallons, I’m filling a lake.
And wasn’t it fortunate, nearly a sin
that I should meet one to whom life would give Gin.

12/28/2006

My Heart is What it Was Before

“My heart is what it was before”*
a bleak and lonely place.
"I love what others do abhor,"**
my heart belies my face.


“I light the lamp and lay the cloth”*
I stoke the fire to blaze.
I choose to break a solemn troth;
my muse has cunning ways.

I wick the ink to golden quill;
my steed of verse is spurred.
Both muse and victim hanging, will
intent beget absurd?

What follows, then, is apropos
said verse is dark and terse.
The fount has made foul brook to flow;
it's drivel I disperse.

©2006 W.D.Neighbors


*Edna St. Vincent Millay....collected lyrics "Alms"

** Shakespeare, sonnet CL


The Eyes of Time


When first we met at heaven’s door;
when all was endless night,
I fell in love, by touch, before
the Lord invented light.

A lyric of the universe,
our song is sung by choice;
a syncopated line of verse
in every Angel’s voice.

I look into the eyes of time
and see myself with you
from eons past and out of mind
to futures not in view.

When death may come to clam his prize;
when dark and light resign,
the darkest Angel we’ll surprise;
as your heart beats does mine.

© copyright 2004 W.D.Neighbors

Sewing Circle


They don’t require, nor have they kept
a penny for their tender task.
The comfort sewn as tears are wept;
a finer wage they couldn’t ask.

As mothers wait and pray aloud
that hope may live forever thus
the quiet artists, shy and proud
construct of cloth a loving truss.

To help support the cause of hope,
their time is spent; compassions sewn
to soothe the ones who have to cope
with fear that most have never known.

From in the heart and high above;
from nothing asked; a quilt of good—
a sewing circle made of love;
of universal motherhood.

© copyright 2002 W.D. Neighbors

Necessary Task



If necessary I will die or kill
within the rules engaged to govern such,
though these may slow my fuse, impede my will
against a foe with no such moral crutch.

If necessary I will go to war;
extend my country’s might beyond the sea,
but when you ask this of me, nay before,
look closely at my face and you will see—

the little babe who suckled at your breast,
who once believed you walked upon the water.
I am the worst of you and all your best;
your own courageous son, your gallant daughter.

My country, in your heart, before you ask,
be certain death’s a necessary task.

© Copyright 2005 W.D.Neighbors

John



These stories of his younger days,
I’ve heard them all before,

but somehow they don’t sound so stale
and boring anymore.

These memories of small town teams,
of playing country ball,

of doughboys who went “over there”
and lived to “bless ‘em all”,

all seem to him like yesterday…
a history he knows,

of Model Tee’s, depression years
and silent picture shows,

of one room schools and butter churns
and following a plow

behind a team of stubborn mules;
he still remembers how.

I came to look him in the eye,
to face our shaky past,

to purge my bitter memories
and make a peace at last.

I came to shake his hand again
and take my share of blame,

but I grew up a bit too late…
he can’t recall my name.

~ © 2001 By: W.D.Neighbors ~

[More:]

~ John ~ 10/27/01. This poem is about my father; John Ledford Neighbors; born March 1907 in Oklahoma with a talent for telling stories that was not always appreciated by his youngest son, and a memory like a colorfully illustrated history text book.

This was written after my last visit with him. During the visit he talked, in great detail, with my son and I about a baseball game, in which he had played in a small Oklahoma town back in the 1920's. He remembered individual at bats, pitches, plays, players names etc. At the end of the story he said to me "I know you are a Neighbors boy, but what's your name?"

Dad passed away in Dec 2001, just a couple months after my visit and not long after I wrote this. I used it as the "template" for another poem about the coincidence of Dad's passing and the (shortly thereafter) birth of his great grandson, Bailey Michael Neighbors. I like to think they passed each other, and smiled, at the door. I have posted that poem here in this blog (the ballad of John and Bailey)

The Ballad of John.... and Bailey

The Ballad of John ...

John was born a farmers son
and learned to work the lands
in rural Oklahoma where
they made life with their hands.

He learned to tell a story well
and all who listened know
of model T's, depression days
and silent picture shows ...

of wagon trips and cotton crops
and playing country ball ...
of thunder storms and blackjack trees
and harvests in the fall ...

of one room schools and butter churns
and following a plow
behind a team of stubborn mules,
he still remembered how.

The oldest of eleven then
what could the schoolboy do
but read his book behind a plow
and pray his rows were true.

John married young as some men do
and raised a family
of seven children, seven strong,
with quiet dignity.

They moved to Colorado for,
he hoped, a better day.
To make a life without a crop ...
to live another way.

Then out to California
a blue pacific dawn.
The war was recent history,
the grapes of wrath were gone.

They cut some grapes and pulled a mile
of cotton down a row.
They chased some water, pulled a plow
and danced with mister hoe.

They moved their share of sprinkler lines
then moved them all again.
They moved the mighty cotton plant from
row to sack to gin.

John lost his love one dreary day
but kept his stubborn pride
and lived another forty years
though half his heart had died.

And other loves and other crops
and other rows to hoe ...
and other losses other moves
and other pain to know.

Alone at last, yet not alone,
Louisiana bound ...
in southern hospitality
a final home he found.

A restful town, a peaceful life,
tomato plants to tend.
With books to read and tales to tell,
a better way to end.

With honor and integrity,
with unrelenting pride ...
with dignity John lived his life...
with dignity he died.

... And Bailey

Two Neighbors boys at Heavens door
paused there to share a grin ...
then one stepped out to start a life
and one came home again.



~ Wayne D. Neighbors ~

There are a lot of stories buried in this about; John playing country baseball as a youth; about having to quit school after elementary school to help on the family farm; about carrying a favorite book everywhere he went, reading it over and over; buying his first car and learning to drive on the way home; about a trip in a horse drawn wagon that the family took when John was a young boy; about my Mother's death at a relatively young age and my Dad's attempts to deal with that for the rest of his long life; about the moves from Oklahoma to Colorado and on to California and the obvious (in my mind) parallel with the John Stienbeck book "The grapes of wrath" (he didn't like the book -- "makes the Okies look like they were stupid, we weren't stupid".

Bailey at six months old now as I write this, sits on his Dad's lap and seems to watch "Baseball Tonight" on ESPN ... like father, like son like grandfather, like great-grandfather etc. John was a life-long baseball fan... a favorite was, fellow Oklahoman Carl Hubbel. One of the last people Dad met was my son Michael's new wife, Nikki. She was carrying his great grandson (Bailey) at the time. Dad died just days before Bailey was born. I like to think they crossed paths at the threshold.

On Leaving Christmas

From last Christmas (but still true).


On leaving Christmas presence in the air,
on holiday from work, or maybe not...
our spirit feels, as winter, cold and bare,
our body, now a temple sense forgot.
The reasons for the Christmas presents bought
are gone, like bows and papers, in a bag
somewhere behind a fence. Our hearts besot
with cheerfulness; with milk and honey, sag
from Christmas dark regret; to new years sulk and drag.


© 2005 W.D.Neighbors

12/19/2006

And in Your Eyes


I know, at last, why my heart sings,
though in your prison I remain;
it’s borne aloft on Angel’s wings.

Love’s prisoner by free will’s choice
I serve my time, I don’t complain;
in custody do I rejoice—

for I know, well, that true love lies
within the freedom of my chains---
and in your heart; and in your eyes.


© copyright 2006 W.D. Neighbors



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12/18/2006

Poetry and Magic

I, obviously, read too much about King Arthur as a child.

I dreamed you were a maiden and
I was a mighty king.
In dreams I can go anywhere,
accomplish anything.

I dreamed us to a place and time
of castles in the sky.
A magic land of poetry
where wishes learn to fly.

The king was sired by fantasy,
an orphan child of rhyme.
He’s Arthur, late of Camelot,
an image out of time.

The maid was born of sorcery,
a magic portrait of
Queen Guinevere of fondest dreams,
the picture of my love.

Awake! Oh sweet reality,
my dreams have all come true.
The poetry lives in my heart…
the magic lives in you.

© 2002 W,D, Neighbors

11/24/2006

Jacobs Ladder

An adolescent fool, I made mistakes
and, each time, thought that I was the inventor.
A talent for disaster’s all it takes
to gather damage fore and aft of center.

I suffer with the best. My broken heart
is permanent. With each new scar I crow;
“I hurt, therefore I am”… not quite Descartes,
but accurate enough as slogans go.

I’m older now, and wear my scars with pride.
They represent a mortal Jacob’s ladder.
No Angel, I ascend, eyes open wide
and choose to be the wiser not the sadder.

The sum of all those scars stands, strong, before you.
So, “shrink” me if you must, I’ll just ignore you.


© 2003 W.D. Neighbors


“And he dreamed,
and behold, a ladder set up on the earth,
and the top of it reached to heaven;
and behold the Angels of God
ascending and descending on it.”

Genesis 28:12



Name: Jacob

Title: Jacob's Ladder

Creation date: 2003

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10/30/2006

Memories


memories of memories
…imperfect and surreal
copies made of copies of
…a loss that I should feel

photographs and traces of
…the one who was my world
black and white reminders of
... a pretty little girl

questions ask me questions
...but answers don't reply
the echoes of a silent heart
...can never tell me why

the gray and faded image
... the mother she became
what do we have in common
.. beyond our common name

a tattered family bible
... a note made by her hand
pieces of a strangers past
... that I don't understand

if l ask the questions .
... will answers that I find
restore the faded image in
... the bottom of my mind

memories of memories
…imperfect and surreal
copies made of copies of
... a loss I’ll always feel

© Copyright 2004 Wayne D. Neighbors

8/27/2006

No Roses




No crosses mark the ocean waves;
no monuments of stone.
No roses grow on Sailor's graves;
a Sailor rests alone.

His tributes are the Seagulls sweeps;
forever wild and free...
and teardrops that a sweetheart weeps
to mingle with the sea.

~ © 2000 By: W.D. Neighbors ~

3/11/2006

Circle Circle

Oh why, dear muse, has this pen been forsaken?
Does verse not slake your ego when you thirst?
Perhaps your taste in wine I have mistaken;
a sour grape for muse? I have rehearsed
the motions of the quill I made before
but little seems to flow. The verses should
be pooling on the paper, not the floor
like blood or urine. If one only could
turn on and off the muse through force of will;
extract the feelings deep within the heart,
I’d wick the fear and love from pot to quill
and scratch them on a page. If I could start

perhaps then, muse, you would restore my knack
and let the magic circle, circle back.